Hurt(depression)

Hurt,
The only feeling that matters,
The only thing that separates the weak from the strong,
What can you do when there is nothing left?
Nothing there to help?
I have lost.
The battle between good and evil,
The war against life and death,
Death is the victor once again.
I look at the faces of those who pass by,
I see nothing but the drab dullness of there daily lives,
The emptiness that fills their souls.
Nobody would help,
For the ones close to me have abandoned me, the friends I once had have turned away from me.
The only help would come from a stranger,
Not because of friendliness no,
But from pity.
For not a man on the earth would help me.
It is not in the nature of man afterall,
It is in their nature that they try to avoid other's problems.
For they feel that they have enough of their own.
They fear that If they truly try to help they would be tied to the other's problems,
Being faced with a greater weight to carry.
It is not sympathy that causes people to ask,
But pity.
For all humanity had grown to think that they could always help.
It is pity, that causes the crowd to gather,
It is pity, commiseration, ruth.
Not sympathy,
But mercy.
For god hath no mercy.
God smites the weak and has forsaken me,
Abandoned me,
He does not have mercy,
He aims his greatest blows carefully and knocks me down,
Piece by piece as I fall away I feel once more,
Once more the agonizing pain as god hath foresaken me and left me to Satan,
And the almighty Lucifer drags me down farther.
He also hath no pathos,
For it is a human trait,
The feeling of pity is weak and makes me vulnerable.
It makes the person in front of me
Look as if it required a gift,
As if the only thing it needed was help.
But that is what catches me,
I am that person,
This is a reflection of myself.
This deformed shape before me,
It is my soul,
It has been shaped into something horrific,
Something without promise,
Something without purpose.
Tell me,
What does one have to look forward to when everything has gone?
What does one need to live when the only person who would help is a total stranger?
Tell me.
Tell me...