Glad to be here!

I would like to thank Juna for inviting me to the blog. You know how much it means to me Juna. Thank you for excepting me with open arms and a open mind. All of you. I hope I can keep up with everyone's standards. Thank you for this oppertunity. It means the world to me. I wish I could think of more to say but I'm lost for words. Thank you yet again.

Chords

The chords,
They ring around the steeple walls and strike,
Strike a tune that resounds and embraces the hearts of those who listen.
The tune that takes the meaning of the chords and celebrates it.
It puts the moral, the meaning, the story that was meant to be told and puts it on a pedestal.
An international message that gives off in music.

Future and Present Problematic World

Hey everyone, I wanted to post one of my older poems.. This one is about 2 or 3 years old, but my feelings used in it remain the same. Here it is:

Hope everyone likes it ^_^ (Also happens to be the only poem I had access to at the moment, since my laptop is still broke.)

Future and Present Problematic World

World full of problems, 
Mine seem minor, to others,
But to me?? They are major,
More major than the sun or moon,
And as unknowable as the end of time,
Problems, how to deal with??
Always hyper, always energetic,
Always obsessive and unresting,
Always changing emotions, 
Like the changing time,
Always being over sentimental, 
Crying at works of fiction, 
Only partly sad parts,
I bawl during the real sadness,
The sadness of loneliness,
The sadness of heartbreak,
The sadness of losing, 
Friends, and others of importance,
Friends, there’s a sad topic,
Friends are life,
They are memories of better times,
Memories of happiness, mostly,
Some are sad, but those are expected,
After all, who ever sad happiness was free??
Oh well. Lose a friend or two,
Cry for an hour each, lose another,
Cry some more, 
Let all the emotion out,
Pour out the LIVING SOUL,
EXPRESS THYSELF to the FULLEST!!
NEVER hold in the emotions,
Anger, self-pity, sadness??
Loneliness, desperation, 
They aren’t meant to be BOTTLED UP,
If your happy, you show it,
Emotions shouldn’t be hid, 
Not from yourself, the people you love,
Or more importantly, the people who love you…
But emotions shift, its natural, mine just shift faster,
Sadness?? I have it worse than others,
I’m affected more, I have problems handling it, 
Hell, who knows how I’ll end up,
All I know, is that I love, I cry,
I end up in shambles, I get lonely,
I get angry, I cant even govern my own emotions.
Self-control ?? don’t get me started,
I don’t have any, self-control to me, 
Is like me trying to fly, 
Having no self control, is a curse,
Makes me lose friends, 
Ending in me crying my eyes out,
With a gaping hole right through the heart,
Well my hearts big, room for all my friends, 
But every time I lose one, my heart grows colder,
I grow colder, colder by the day, by the minute,
Eventually my heart will be stone,
Cursed to never trust, never love, never accept,
Anyone. Ever again, when that happens, maybe ill know peace,
When it happens, maybe I’ll feel free form the burden of my problems,
When it happens,…. One can only hope.
But until it happens, ill continue on,
Continue to move forward, continue to trust to accept,
Continue to love, to feel, to be heartbroken and hurt,
Continue on with my life in hell, 
People think of hell as fire, 
I think of hell as being alive sometimes, 
In the most serious case, imagine immortality,
Living forever while all friends, loved ones, 
Watch them all die, but unable to die with them…. 
Impossible reality, that situation is hell, but sometimes life,
Is a miniature hell, who knew??
I did, so did others, others like me, some have ways to escape,
They cut, they kill, they do drugs, or simply ignore,
Me?? Me, I cry, I curl up, I bleed through the eyes, 
But not blood, I bleed a more pure item, 
I bleed tears, tears form the heart and soul, 
So precious as to be considered priceless, s
But I have them, have them all, I let them out, they disappear, 
But my escape is my downfall,
Public humiliation, crying in front of others??
What do I care, I don’t, I let the tears flow, 
But the comments hurt, the comment sting, 
They burn in my memory, staying locked in there…
Oh how I will envy love when I feel it no more, 
Envy everything I will no longer feel,
Envy the life I had, but appreciate the life I will have, 
But till then its time to live for the now,
Live for the current, the PRESENT,
I will live my life to the fullest,
And accept the consequences when the time comes,
Until then I will live with pride, sadness, and love….